Sometimes i really feel like crap and no matter how much comforting i get from my friends i still feel so i hate myself for feeling this way i need to change i want to change but no matter how hard i tried i succumb to temptations temptations that give me cheap thrills and instant joy which sometimes if lucky can last me a day or two im tired of leading my life this way i hate how the fact that an insignificant event in my life can actually make me feel this way where's the other purposes in life i wonder i ponder i guess yet no one anyone can give me an answer even myself i seldom use this space but judging the fact that i am right now just shows how much im not liking th way things are right now im tired really really tired there are just some stuffs no matter how ppl say they understand they never have and they never will be and somehow or rather i just feel as though im gona be stuck in this shithole forever seeing the light above me but not reaching it though everything may seem in place and all but that missing link or should i say links im afraid can never be found they say your time will come patience is all i need but then again time how long is time a sec a min a month a year i guess no one can give me a definite answer unless someone anyone beg to differ